Sunday, September 11, 2011

Anniversary of 9/11


Do you remember where you were on this day 10 years ago?  I do, vividly.


I was beginning my senior year at Meredith College.  I was sitting in the dining hall with some friend - Rynn, Charity, and a few others - having breakfast in Belk Dining Hall.  I was sitting there, having a nice conversation with some girlfriends, when the news spread across the TV that a plane had hit the World Trade Center.  

We were all stunned.  As we all left for our respective classes, we wondered what caused this terrible accident.  Later, we discovered, that it wasn't an accident.  It was a terrible, horrible tragedy that would rock our nation to the core.  Not only was the World Trade Center hit, the Pentagon was struck, and another airplane went down in Pennsylvania.  Four planes...Set out to hurt...    

Everything for the rest of the day was a blur.  I remember getting out of class and sitting in front of the TV, unable to concentrate on my schoolwork.  Sometimes we would try to talk, but most of the time it was just silence and fright while watching the TV.  

It has been 10 years since that horrible day in US history and I remember it as though it was yesterday.  Even now, everything that went through my mind that day (fear, disbelief, etc.) is still very vivid.  

Today, I will remember:
  • The first responders 
  • The people that were killed, injured, or lost a loved one
  • The soldiers and contractors that have been in/to Iraq and Afghanistan
  • The response of our country to this horrible event and how we are stronger as a nation because of it
  • That every day we are given is a gift
My boss sent this out via email on Friday afternoon and I thought it was appropriate to share:
"All of us remember that horrible and tragic day, September 11, 2001. In many ways, it is hard to believe that Sunday is the 10th anniversary. In other ways, it seems that so much has happened, and so much has changed, that surely it must have happened long ago.

It is hard to know what to say about this anniversary. Certainly we all need to take time to remember those who lost their lives that day, and their families. Some of the victims were just in the wrong place at the wrong time, whether on an airplane, working in a tall building, or elsewhere. Others were public servants, first responders who were trying to do their job and help others, and got caught in something larger than they could have understood fully. Just as certainly we need to remember the members of our armed forces who lost their lives in Afghanistan and Iraq and elsewhere, and their families. Those who sent them in harm’s way, right or wrong, believed that doing so would make us safer. We have asked too much of our military service members and their families over these years.

What have we learned? Whether we have truly learned it or not, one lesson is that hatred, one motivating force of the 9/11 terrorist attacks, never solves anything. We have sought and partially achieved vengeance, which some certainly deserved, but we cannot let ourselves be drawn down into corrosive and self-destructive hatred.

Our leaders might have taken us down some wrong paths, although we have not completely lost our way. But some of those choices, combined with other decisions, have depleted our national treasury, which brings us a host of problems into the future. We need to work harder at being peacemakers, particularly in the Middle East. The “Arab spring” has brought great possibilities, but great challenges, and there are some other growing problems, like Iran.

Certainly our country has changed over the course of these 10 years, and not entirely for the better. It is more difficult and time consuming to get through airport security, and some other security measures might be overly intrusive and unjust to some. We are more divided, although that cannot be attributed solely to differences of opinion about the war on terror. We are more distrustful, and maybe fearful, of others who are different. We tend to forget that many who were different came here from other places and helped build this country, including many who were brought here forcibly against their will. We also forget that we will need the skills and contributions of immigrants in the future.

I believe we need to come back together, and focus more on the things that unite us and make us stronger for the long term, rather than the things that divide us. The United States of America is the greatest nation on the face of the earth and the most desirable place to live, although clearly we have some problems to fix. I believe we need to focus on the things that made this country great, and can make it greater, including: better education for all; innovation, including adequate public and private spending on research and development; strong, productive, modern public infrastructure; respect for all of our fellow Americans and willingness to help those who most need help, with less complaining; and keep our military and intelligence capabilities strong, remembering the lessons of history and knowing that we will need them again, but with a more enlightened and hardnosed policy about our true national security interests, and with a vow that we will not send the troops again unless there is a general national consensus about the need and a willingness to pay the financial costs.

I believe we need a renewed commitment to lift ourselves out of these economic doldrums and make this country even greater. That would disappoint and finish defeating those who want to do us harm, and build a better future for our children and grandchildren.

Take a few moments on Sunday amidst the news coverage and reflect quietly, and be thankful for our many blessings."




Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Friend Makin' Monday: More Favorite Things


I'm a day late, but I love reading everyone's answers.  Figured I would go ahead and still answer too.


If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please add your  links there too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!



FMM:  Favorite Things

1) What is your favorite food?  I grew up on the coast of NC and was always afforded the opportunity to each fresh seafood.  I could live off shrimp - fried shrimp, boiled shrimp, broiled shrimp, shrimp burger, shrimp taco...  I feel like Bubba Gump.


2) What is your favorite childhood memory? Hmmm...  I can think of a lot of great memories, but probably the weekends at Shackleford with my family would be my favorite.


3) What is your favorite way to burn calories?  If I am in the gym, then I would stay the stairmill.  If I am going to be outside, running for sure!


4) What is your favorite mode of technological communication? I am an email kinda girl.  I don't know why exactly, except that maybe it is because I have a "trail" and a way to remind myself later of what was discussed.


5) Who is your favorite actor/actress? My favorite actress is Julia Roberts.  I fell completely in love with her after Steel Magnolias.  


6) What is your favorite lip color? My current favorites are all from Bare Escentuals - Ginger, Kanani, and courage


7) Who is your favorite historical figure? Hmmm... No clue 


8) Who is your favorite athlete?  Again, no clue.  Jeff Galloway and John Bingham maybe?  I mean, seriously, these guys have encouraged tons of people that wouldn't otherwise run to get out there and move.


9) What is your favorite TV network? I tend to watch TLC, HGTV, and FoodNetwork mostly.  Sometimes, I get drawn in by stupid "reality" shows on Bravo and MTV.


10) What is your favorite site on the web? Huffington Post and CNN

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Making peace

I have always had issues with my body, always.  When I was pushing 340 pounds, there was a reason to have issues.  My body was a harmful shell and it was killing me a little more each day.  I am working to to "make peace" with my body.  I have realized that while I may never be model thin, I am pretty dang happy with what I have... 

One example is my legs.  What can my legs do? 
  • They can can carry me through running a half marathon!; 
  • have a nearly noticeable line/muscle in the calf;
  • can press 200 pounds at the gym - strong!;
  • and much more.  I may not be proud daily of how my legs appear, but I am proud of what they do for me each day. 
I am no longer focusing on the negatives of my body.  I know that I will always be my own biggest critic, but I am going to accept what I have.  I am going to make the best of each part, no matter how critical I am of it - all while trying to improve myself.


Saturday, August 27, 2011

The joys of waiting on a hurricane

Well, yesterday was another day of waiting for the affects of Hurricane Irene.  Last night, the hubs and I went out to dinner because we figured we might not get out of the house today.  With the way I feel right now, I don't want to go anywhere.  I have been concerned about my parents, but there is nothing I can do from here.  I just talked to my Daddy and they are without power, lost several trees in the backyard, but have survived pretty unscathed otherwise. 

I have no choice than to share the funniest part of our conversation though...  Let me set it up for you - my parents home has no power, but they have a generator.  They have the gas for the generator, but haven't gotten it out yet.  So, my Mama's cell phone is dead.  Instead of hooking up the cell phone (and other household appliances) to the generator, she is sitting in her car charging her cell phone.  Love it!  Love ya Mama!


My friend, BA, at The Heir To Blair, wrote a great blog post about "Being a North Carolinian".  I had no choice than to copy/paste it below.  Thanks BA!  (My editorial comments are in blue.)

How to deal with natural disasters & weather North Carolina style.

1)  Stay glued to your local weather on the 8′s.  DO NOT MOVE UNTIL YOU SEE THE LOCAL WEATHER ON THE 8′s, EVEN IF YOUR PASTA IS BOILING OVER ON THE STOVE, your biscuits are burnin' in the oven, & YOUR HOUSE IS BURNING DOWN.  Because a hurricane/blizzard/tornado be coming, y’all.

2)  Stick your head as far up your ass as possible until you’re kissing your teeth, then get behind the wheel of your car & head to the grocery store.

3)  BREAD & MILK ARE THE NECTAR OF LIFE.  oh, you waited until 9am to get to the store 3 days before the disaster?  You’re fucked.  No bread for you.  Go grab some eggs.  Why bread, milk, and eggs?  French toast y'all.  You never fixed french toast - you will during this natural disaster - just because that's how we do it. 

4)  If you are a lunatic conservative, freak the hell out on Facebook & Twitter, claiming that you knew New York would pay for their sins because HELLO, God sends an earthquake & then a hurricane?

5)  Barricade yourself in your home.
  • People of Group 1 see this as an generous reason to not clean their house & wallow in their filth for a few days without changing out of pajamas.
  • People of Group 2 scrub the house from top to bottom as a welcome present to the disaster, then serve a four-course dinner in pearls.  Gotta keep up appearances for guests, y’all.
  • Outcome #1 - Pat yourself on the back, safe inside your house hugging your bread & milk as two inches of rain or snow fall, knowing the city will probably stay shut down another 48 hours.
  • Outcome #2 - Hard core weather actually happens.  The power goes out, so the milk & eggs you purchased are totally effed.  You stocked up on Netflix instead of D batteries, so you pull out the aged whisky & hop in bed the moment it gets dark.  Hospitals rub their hands eagerly at the influx of Labor & Delivery income predicted nine months from now.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Earthquake and Hurricane Irene in the same week? Seriously?

On Tuesday afternoon, there was an earthquake on the east coast.  The fault was located north of Richmond, but tremors were felt in North Carolina.  I was working from home and felt something funny.  At first, I thought it was the washing machine messing up - that was until I realized that the washing machine wasn't running.  It was an unreal sensation and I am hoping I don't have to deal with that again anytime soon.


Since the earthquake, my mind has been filled with thoughts of Hurricane Irene.  My parents live in Beaufort, North Carolina.  Yesterday afternoon, the forecast had Irene going right through my hometown.  No good.  I swear I talked to my parents multiple times yesterday because this is the first hurricane that I have really been concerned about.  I am not sure why, but I just have a bad feeling about this one...

My folks are choosing not to board up the windows on their house.  They have relatively new vinyl siding and windows and would rather not mess it up by drilling plywood in the vinyl.  I am not liking that idea, but it is their home.  I am relieved to know that my Daddy is planning to go pick up my Granny and bring her to their house.  She lives in a mobile home on the other side of the county and I was so scared for her staying alone.  

I have made a few preparations for us.  We are likely to have some wind and power outages in Raleigh.  I have located and refreshed batteries in our flashlights.  I picked up some extra snacky-type foods and 3 gallons of water.  If the power goes out, the hubs and I will enjoy PB&J sandwiches, double dark chocolate cookies, goldfish crackers, and some other fun stuff.   
Anyway, Hurricane Irene will be dominating my thoughts until I know that my parents and family are safe.  We may have a little wind in Raleigh, but that is nothing compared to what the people I love are going to deal with in the next day.  If you live in an area that is likely to be affected by Irene, please prepare and stay safe! 



Monday, August 22, 2011

FMM: The Last Thing

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: http://www.alltheweigh.com/ so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please add your links there too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

FMM: The Last Thing

1) What is the title of the last book you read?  I am currently reading two books - The Happiness Project and Bossypants.  I am a bit ADD when it comes to reading, so I flit between a few things at one time.
2) What is the last movie you saw in a theater? The hubs and I went to see Bridesmaids a month or so ago. 
3) Briefly describe the last person you saw today.  I last saw a coworker that usually works from home.  I think the last time I saw her was about 3 months ago.  She has lost a ton of weight and looks amazing!
4) Which store did you most recently shop in?  Bed Bath & Beyond
5) Who’s the last person you spoke to over the phone? My Daddy.  I talk to him almost every morning on the way to work.  We started the tradition when I left home to go to college (1998) and have been fairly consistent ever since
6) Where’s the last place you vacationed? The hubs and I celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary in May.  We went on a 3-night Disney cruise, followed by 4-nights at the Polynesian Resort at Walt Disney World.
7) When was the last time you kissed someone of the opposite sex?  This morning
8) What’s the last thing that made you laugh? A email from a friend... It wasn't a funny situation, but amusing how dumb people can be
9) What’s the latest app that you downloaded on your phone?  My Fitness Pal
10)  What’s the last kind thing you did for someone?  I don't really know... I did help someone carry their dry cleaning out to their car this morning since I was going to have to wait in line.

Now it’s your turn to answer this week’s questions!  

Friday, August 19, 2011

The fall training plan

Well, I mentioned that I won't be traveling to Florida for the Women's Half Marathon, but I still want to do a fall half marathon.  I am hedging between two races - the Outer Banks Half Marathon and the City of Oaks Half Marathon.  While I like that the City of Oaks Marathon is in Raleigh (no hotel or travel!), I don't love the course because of the hills.  The Outer Banks Half is nearly all flat, with the exception of going over the bridge into Manteo.  I will be making my decision in the next week or so.  Either way, training must begin! 

Here's my proposed training schedule for the race - what do you think?  It pretty much follows the plan that Jeff Galloway produces for the Disney Marathons.  The first half marathon training program was based on Hal Higdon's novice plan.  I am just not sure which one I prefer.  We'll see...


I have been trying to keep my long run mileage (Saturday/Sunday) in the 5-7 mile range.  This weekend, I am supposed to do 6 miles, with 10 for the next two weeks (didn't insert August calendar)

It is a possibility that Monday and Tuesday training will be flip-flopped along the way.  I got used to running with Sarah on Monday and Thursday afternoon before the half.  Who knows...We may end up starting that back again.



Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Changing things up - Weight Watchers and My Fitness Pal

I have been on a up-down-up-down plateau with my weight since the first week in May.  I wasn't concerned about the up-down pattern for the first month after my half marathon, because I promised myself that I was going to give myself a little break.  Well, when I got to the three month mark of the up-down mess, I decided that something had to give. 

On Tuesday, August 9, I started double-tracking my foods - in Weight Watchers and in My Fitness Pal.  Within the first couple of days, I realized a few things:
  1. I was overeating in fruit/veggies.  How can one overeat in fruit/veggies?  Well, it is actually pretty easy...  If I was hungry (or thought I was hungry), I would go for fruit/veggies.  Instead of being smart and eating 1 piece of fruit or a serving of veggies, I would go hog-wild (i.e., 5-6 clementines instead of 2-3).  This adds up in a short period of time.
  2. I was overestimating my activity points and eating all of them.  This has been a pitfall on Weight Watchers for me in the past.  I guess that I feel like I earned every single one of my activity points, I should be able to eat every single one of them.  Unfortunately, this isn't always true.  Sometimes, it is good to leave a few extra points on the table.
  3. I was underestimating many of my foods, especially on the weekend.  Weight Watchers gives you a lovely, wonderful little pot of weekly points (49 to be exact).  Well, I was blowing the heck out of them on the weekends.  I was definitely underestimating my serving sizes and points values because I would always say "I am using my weeklies for this..."  I was very good about weighing my food before the half marathon and I am back to weighing again.  It is amazing how deceptive your eyes can be with serving sizes!
Well, after double-tracking for 1 week (with weighing on Tuesday), I am down 2.8 pounds.  I think I am going to continue double-tracking for a little while longer, at least until I figure out what tool is best for me right now. 

I am 0.2 away from being out of the obese category for BMI.  I would love to get down to 150, or a little less, so that I am closer to the healthy BMI category (147.6).  I know that it isn't gonna be easy.  I know that it is gonna be slow.  But, I have worked hard and I will continue to do so until I reach my goal!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Dropping out of a race before it even happens :-(

I made the decision today to not do the Women's Half Marathon in St. Petersburg, Florida.  The race is scheduled for November 20, the Sunday before Thanksgiving.  I think this is the best decision, but it doesn't mean I won't be doing a fall half. 

I completed my first half marathon on May 14.  Not long there after, I signed up for the WHM in St. Pete.  I was still on the "high" from my half and didn't really think about everything involved in heading to Florida the week of Thanksgiving - totally not typical for me.  I didn't factor in the higher cost of airline tickets, the cost of hotel for the event, and the pretty high cost of transportation to/from the airport in Tampa to St. Petersburg.  I have to be honest that I am slightly disappointed, but in the end the decision will probably be for the best, but it sucks to be out the money for registration.  Anyone want to impersonate me? (Just kidding, kinda)

I am planning to work on modifying my fall half marathon training program this week.  I am going to wait a few more weeks, but I think I am going to sign up for the City of Oaks Half Marathon.  I was a course monitor for the race last year and enjoyed it.  So, still gonna do a fall race!!

Friday, August 12, 2011

A fun little game - Thoughts versus Actuality

My cousin, Natalie, posted this on her blog after seeing it on a friends blog.  Looks like a little bit of fun to start off Friday!  I think it is cool to see how life actually changes...
So, why don't you fill it out too!  Comment with a link to your answers! 
Where I thought I’d be when I was 12:   I thought I would be the cool kid, hanging out with friends in my small town, and probably participating in sports. 
Actuality:  Chubby kid.  Not cool, but was friends with everyone.  Didn't really participate actively in sports, but was in band.
Where I thought I’d be when I was 16:  I thought I would be a great student at East Carteret, lots of friends, a wonderful boyfriend, and a great job.   
Actuality:  I was a pretty good student at ECHS, but didn't work to get great grades.  I had a lot of friends, but no boyfriend to speak of (I think a lot of that had to do with self-esteem issues).  I worked at a local seafood restaurant and met my first love (that didn't end up being my true love).
Where I thought I’d be when I was 21:  I thought I would be in my senior year of college, preparing to get a great job.  I thought I would be engaged to marry the man of my dreams and start a family.   
Actuality:   2001/21 was tough.  I was in my senior year at Meredith College, the job market in my field was pretty crappy, etc.  I did not have a boyfriend, much less a fiance.  I also was diagnosed with PCOS right before turning 21.  It was then that I found out that having kids would likely be very difficult.  I was dealing with lots of self-esteem issues (still).  It eventually turned around, but that was just a tough time.
Where I thought I’d be when I was 25:  I thought I would be married to a great guy, living in a beautiful home with one child.  I thought I would have worked my way up the "corporate ladder" and enjoy every aspect of my job.   
Actuality:   I wasn't married to a great guy, but I was engaged to one :-)  We were living in a wonderful, beautiful condo (still do!) and enjoying every day together.  We were discussing kids a lot and whether or not we really wanted children of our own.  We were planning the wedding of our dreams - classic and relatively simple.  I was working for a biotech company in RTP and not loving it.
Where I thought I’d be when I was 27:  Depends on when you asked...  I would have thought I would still be climbing the corporate ladder, getting involved in Junior League (or something similar). 
Actuality:   I was in the middle of changing jobs (again!).  I was the "new kid on the block" at my job, but loving every minute of it.  I realized that I am definitely not the Junior League type.
Where I thought Id be when I was 31:  Settled into a great routine with my husband.  Doing volunteer work to help others, since I won't be doing the PTA thing.  Traveling a lot.  Enjoying my life.  
Actuality:  (31 is only a few weeks away!!)  We are settled into a great routine.  It took us a while to figure it out, but we each have our roles in our relationship.  I recently started volunteering for Dress for Success and love it!  I love my life!

Where I think I’ll be when I’m 35:  I have no clue!  I want to still love my life!  I wouldn't mind moving up in my organization and taking on a little more responsibility.  I'd love to be able to be closer to the people I love more often, etc.  
Actuality: Only time will tell....  4 years to go.
Where I think I’ll be when I’m 40:   Happy, loved, and satisfied with all aspects of my life. 

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Much ado over "nothing"

So, the stress of the past few days was pretty useless.  Isn't that always how it goes?  The hubs had his upper endoscopy procedure this morning.  According to everything I understand, he did very well with the prep and the actual tests. 

After the procedure, the doctor reviewed the pictures from the endoscopy.  Basically, the hubs has a slightly irregular Z-line (tissue sent for biopsy), hiatal hernia, and gastritis (also sent for biopsy).  So what does all of that mean?  If I understood the doctor correctly - the hubs has pretty annoying acid reflux (along with a significant amount of the population).  The irregular Z-line was likely caused by not treating the reflux as soon as it was noticed, but it is no reason for concern.

Dr. O'Loughlin prescribed the hubs a reflux medication, instructed him to follow an anti reflux regimen/diet, and come back for a follow-up in a few weeks.  Jason and I both asked questions about what the results really mean, should we be concerned, etc.  Dr. O'Loughlin assured us that these issues were relatively insignificant and could be corrected with behavior/diet modification. 

As far as the call from the nurse the other day, well that is another story.  The nurse either misread/misinterpreted what she was supposed to tell the hubs or it was all lost in translation with him.  She should have told J that he had a couple very small kidney stones (no reason for further consultation at this point, a couple very small gallstones (again, no need for concern right now), and a couple fatty deposits in his liver.  No one will ever know what she really told him because I am sure he went immediately to the worst case scenario.  Dr. O'Loughlin said that he does have some fatty deposits on his liver, not fatty liver/fatty liver disease/non-alcoholic cirrhosis.  He said that the deposits are normal for most people and that it isn't anything to be concerned about unless he has inflammation in his liver and/or his liver function tests come back funky (neither of which apply).

So, at this point, the biggest/best thing we can do is reduce trigger/reflux inducing food from our diet.  Considering that the list from the doctor has a lot of foods on it that the hubs loves, this should be interesting.  I am going to do my best to encourage him to eat things that don't cause him issues, but I have a feeling he is going to be stubborn about it.  Of course, I will also be telling him that I don't want to hear him complain if he is going to choose to eat foods he shouldn't be eating. 

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

I suck at waiting

I suck at the waiting game...  I feel like I need to get my thoughts out there and then I will feel a little better.  A small warning - This blog post will be filled with limited medical mumbo-jumbo language and will probably be TMI for some.  It will be long.  It will not make much sense.  However, I hope that it will make me relax a little....
Several years ago, the hubs (aka, Jason or J) started complaining about acid reflux type symptoms after eating.  After trying various over-the-counter medications for several months, we made an appointment with our primary care doctor.  After reviewing the various symptoms, etc. the hubs started taking Zantac two times per day.  This seemed to help most of the issues, except the "gassy"/bloating feeling he often had.  The hubs added Phazyme to the mix and it helped some too. 
About 8 months ago, J went for his annual physical.  During the appointment with his doctor, J explained the annoying stomach issues that he was continuing to deal with.  Dr. Anderson upped his Zantac dosage.  He also suggested that it may be time for a referral to a gastroenterologist (GI).  The hubs wasn't too keen on going to another doctor, but told Dr. Anderson he would keep that in mind.
Well, the third week in July, Jason had finally had enough.  We went to J's primary care doctor on Thursday afternoon and discussed our options for different medication, getting a consultation with a GI doc, etc.  Dr. Anderson changed J's medication.  He also got him set up for a referral to Digestive Healthcare for a consultation.
On Friday, July 29, Jason and I went to meet with Dr. O'Loughlin at Digestive Healthcare.  We were immediately put at ease by Dr. O'Loughlin being honest and saying that there likely was some kind of issue with J's stomach, but it was also likely easily fixed with medication, diet modification, etc.  Dr. O'Loughlin put J on another different medication.  He got Jason set up for an abdominal ultrasound and an endoscopy
The abdominal ultrasound was on Tuesday, August 2.  After the ultrasound, we headed to Wilmington/Wrightsville Beach for the rest of the week.  We did the best with keeping our minds distracted from being concerned with the various stomach issues.  We were surprised to not receive a call from the doctor, but finally the nurse called on Tuesday of this week.  The nurse told the hubs that he had a kidney stone(s), gallstone(s), and a fatty liver.  The only advice she provided over the phone was for J to reduce his intake of fatty/greasy food. 
Not long after Jason spoke with the nurse, he called me.  He sounded upset and concerned.  He told me the results and what the nurse said.  Of course, at that moment, I was frustrated.  1) Jason and I don't eat fatty/greasy food; 2) The recommendation to reduce fatty/greasy food is too vague to be helpful; 3) If you are going to call on Tuesday and we have a follow-up on Thursday of the same week - what is the point?
So, the past two days (plus the last week or so) have been an awful waiting game.  I am glad that Jason has an appointment for an endoscopy tomorrow.  I am really hoping that Dr. O'Loughlin can give us some immediate guidance on how to eliminate some of the stomach issues that J is experiencing.  I just need some kind of "game plan".  I keep saying to myself -- Just tell me what is going on.  Tell me if I need to remove food ingredients A through F from our diet and I will.  I will then make the most delicious meals possible with food ingredients G through Z. 
Good thoughts for the hubs tomorrow!  He is very nervous about being "put under" for the endoscopy.  Also, good thoughts for me too.  I have a feeling that I am going to be stuck in the waiting room, trying to remain calm the entire time J is going through his procedure. 
If you made it this far, thank you.  I appreciate it. 

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Week in review

This week has been a busy one, but wonderful.  The hubs had to present at a conference in Wilmington and I had to attend a conference in Wrightsville for work.  What does that mean for us?  Nearly a full week at the beach that we don't have to pay for :-)

Tuesday:  The hubs and I left Raleigh mid/late morning to head toward the beach.  We made a stop in Clinton for the hubs to get a haircut and have lunch at Kaleel's.  Not sure if anyone even knows where Clinton is, but if you ever pass through you must eat at Kaleel's.  After lunch, we made the rest of the trip to Wilmington.  After checking in to the hotel, we made our way to Johnny Mercer's pier for a while.  It was absolutely delightful.  I was right where I belonged - salt air all around and a beer in my hand.  Life was good.  For dinner we headed to a "new to us" restaurant in Wilmington - The Fish House Grill.  You must try the grouper nuggets - so good!

Wednesday:  On Wednesday morning, I dropped the hubs off at his conference.  I headed to Wrightsville Beach to try out "the loop".  I got in a nice 2.5 mile run - the only negative was the ridiculous humidity.  After my run, I headed to the Blockade Runner to sit on the beach for a while.  I was, yet again, right where I belonged...  The salt air just makes my heart happy.  I spent several glorious hours on the beach.  Later that afternoon, I picked up the hubs at his conference.  We spent several hours just hanging out, then went to The Eat Spot.  Another delicious dinner!! 

Thursday:  I dropped the hubs off at his conference and headed on another run.  After my run, I went back to the hotel, got cleaned up, and checked out.  I picked up the hubs around noon and we went to Sweet and Savory for lunch.  Whenever we travel to the Wilmington area, Sweet and Savory is a must.  That afternoon we headed to the Blockade Runner, our hotel for the rest of our trip.  After settling in and attending a the reception for my conference, we met up with the hubs' boss and colleagues at Hieronymous Seafood.  We were able to enjoy catching up with his colleagues and have a yummy seafood dinner.  I had the mahi mahi with lemon-caper sauce.  I love chicken piccata, so I just might have to try making it with fish to change things up. 

Friday:  I spent Friday morning doing activities associated with my conference.  After the morning sessions were over, the hubs and I went to lunch (again) at Sweet and Savory - yummy again!  We spent the afternoon at the pool.  The weather was perfect - partly cloudy and relatively cool.  For dinner we went to 22 North.  I have to say that the food at 22 North is close to "life changing".  They have a chalkboard-style menu - they definitely market their freshness and variety.  I think the best thing we had last night was the Red Beans and Rice appetizer.  It came with these little jalapeno hushpuppies - a nice little kick when you bite into them, but not so spicy that it bothers your stomach.  We are already trying to decide when we are going to come back to Wrightsville Beach, so we can eat at 22 North again. 

Saturday:  Today is the last day of my conference.  After the morning sessions are over, I think we'll be heading out to the pool again.  Tonight we have the closing banquet for the conference and we'll head home tomorrow morning.

If you can't tell, the recurring theme for this week has been - conferences, food, salt air, and food.  I am hoping that I haven't gained this week, but if I did I will just move right on.  The little bit of relaxing time at the beach with my hubs has been good for my soul.  I feel rejuvenated and ready for the next challenge. 

Monday, August 1, 2011

FMM - Girly Stuff

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here www.alltheweigh.com so everyone can see your FMM questions and answers.

FMM: Girly Questions
1. Do you like to shop? I do now!  When I first met my hubs, I hated shopping for clothes.  I think part of that had to do with how I felt about myself.  There are still times where I like to shop in the "hunt vs. hunted" way, but most of the time I enjoy taking my time and savoring the experience.

2. How often do you wear makeup? I wear makeup everyday.  On the weekends, I tend to go with less makeup than on a weekday.  I don't want to scare anyone that I work with, so makeup is a must!

3. How do you feel about nail polish? I admit it...  I am a nail biter.  Until the last month or so, I have had gel nails.  I recently got them removed and now get manicures with gel nail polish.  Hoping they will grow out soon.

4. Do you consider yourself to be a feminist?  Umm...  I don't think I am an uber feminist, but I do love strong, determined women.  I graduated from a women's college and being strong, determined, and all that jazz was embedded in us.  I think that women can do anything that they want, so long as they set their mind to it. 

5. What’s your biggest challenge as a woman? I think the biggest challenge for me is to accept me, but also be aware that I can't "let myself go" at the same time.  I need to be happy with certain parts of my physical appearance, etc. , while always working to maintain a healthy lifestyle, etc.  It is a very hard balance.

6. Do you wear skirts and dresses? I love to wear skirts and dresses in the summer.  When the weather gets cold, rarely will you see me in a skirt/dress because I detest panty hose/tights!

7. How do you feel about high heels? I tolerate them.  Most of the time, I save the heels for important meetings or times when I am going out and know that I will not be standing for a long time.  I am only 5'4" so sometimes I need the height and cute-factor :-)

8. Do you subscribe to magazines? If so, which ones? I currently subscribe to Weight Watchers, Whole Living, and Cooking Light.  I keep meaning to subscribe to Runner's World and/or Women's Running.

9. Do you shave your legs/wax/ use depilatory creams or go au naturale? I shave.

10. What do you like most about being a woman? Hmmm....  Is "almost everything" an ok answer?  I love to cook, bake, clean, organize, etc.  I think my most favorite part of being a woman is the stereotypical "caring" role.  I love doing things for others and just taking care of others.  It's just my thing...

Now it’s your turn to answer the questions! And don’t forget to link up at http://www.alltheweigh.com/!!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

A little disappointed to be (wife of) a Tarheel

Butch Davis has been fired as head coach of the UNC Tarheels.  The only way you could have missed this news is if you have been under a rock for the last 18 hours.  I generally hate am not a big sports fan, but I have enjoyed Butch Davis' tenure at Carolina (Shhh...  Don't tell my husband. He will think he has converted me to a sports fan).  I am pissed upset furious annoyed disappointed.  What can be worse than that?  I suspect that I am not the only one.

Over the weekend, Butch Davis and others from UNC were at Pinehurst preparing for the beginning of the football season.  He was interviewed about his position and seemed to feel that the football program and University were moving on.  It is my understanding that the administration was behind Butch over the weekend, but what changed in two or three days?  Really?  What has changed since the NCAA sent the list of allegations a month ago?  NOTHING.  

I am not going to say that Chancellor Thorpe and AD Baddour shouldn't have made the decision to end Butch's tenure at Carolina, but they sure as hell heck could have picked a better time to do it.  Seriously.  Since last year, they have said they support Butch.  They both announced last November that Butch would be back.  Now, all of a sudden, there has been an epiphany and Butch had to go.  Training camp starts in a week; the first game is Labor Day weekend.  The timing could not be any worse. 

Here's my list of questions:

  • Why continue to say that you are behind a head coach, but as soon as a new Board of Trustees is installed your tune changes?  (The Board of Trustees changed as of July 1.  Yesterday was their first meeting.  New members...  New chairman...)  I suspect that Davis was a scapegoat in this one. 
  • If "...our academic integrity is paramount, and we must work diligently to protect it...", what are you going to do about the individuals that may have a part in this from the Academic Center and/or the general faculty?
  • Can we, as Tarheels, really believe that this has nothing to do with the possibility that the University hopes this will help with sanctions in light of the NCAA investigation?
  • This is nothing but pure punishment to the players that are supposed to start preseason next week.  As much as I want to be supportive of Carolina football, if I were one of the new recruits I would probably beg for someone else to take me.  It is almost like you are telling them you don't care.  You tell them that Butch Davis is going to be their coach, they are excited, they work their asses butts off and then you fire him.  Is that fair?  No.  These kids players have probably dreamed about playing college football since they were little boys in their grandmama's backyard.  I hope they can gain some of their enthusiasm back and do well this year. 
  • What are you going to do with all the empty seats in the Blue Zone?  The Blue Zone was built on the heels of Butch's success.  We as Heels fans were excited.  Now, don't be surprised if you lose some season or regular season ticket sales. 
Even though Butch Davis is no longer Carolina's our coach, I still support him.  I believed it when he said that he did nothing wrong/didn't know about certain things and I will continue to believe him.  

My little message to Butch Davis:
You have been an awesome part of the Carolina tradition and family, even though there were some bumps in the road.  You handled losses and victories with class.  Your enthusiasm and support of the University was obvious in your actions.  I wish you all the best.     

Monday, July 25, 2011

Friend Makin' Monday - Defining Moments

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!


FMM: Defining Moments

Was there a defining moment in which you realized that you needed to lose weight?  If so, will you elaborate? (If you experienced this moment in some other area of your life, please feel free to share that too!)

I honestly can't say the exact day of the "defining moment".  I have worked on my weight and health in the past, but something was different in May 2010.  For some reason, that time it just clicked.  I made the decision to completely transform myself, both mentally and physically.  Why?
  • I was back over 200 pounds and carrying it on my 5'4" frame. 
  • I was getting close to turning 30 and I couldn't imagine continuing through life the way I had been.
  • I was just plain unhappy with something in my life.
I immediately found a gym where I was comfortable and began slowly introducing new activities.  The next month, I started working out with a trainer and did a 10-day organic transformation diet.  In July, I learned about the NCRC women's beginner running program and joined.  I started talking with a therapist on a regular basis.  I focused on me and the things that I could do to help ensure that I am here for a long time with my husband, family and friends. 

It has been an amazing year.  Onward and upward to even more success!





Saturday, July 23, 2011

A lot can happen in one year...

Wow.  That's pretty much a one-word summation of what has happened over the last year... In May of last year, I made a the decision to start taking better care of myself and transform myself. 


On July 24, 2010, I went on my first run with the NCRC women's beginner running program.  I enjoyed being surrounded by women that were like me - they had goals, they had something they wanted to accomplish, they were going to run and not give up.  It was great.  Through the group, I have met lots of awesome women that I believe are some of the best people to ever exist!


Quick summary of the year:
I feel like I have made awesome strides toward transforming myself.  I have gained a love of exercise/fitness that I never thought I would have.  I have lost right at 30 pounds since July 20 of last year.  I feel good about myself.  In fact, I feel better than good - I feel amazing!

If you are thinking about making changes in your life, you can do it.  Hell, if I can do it - anyone can.  You have people that have been where you are all over the place - there are blogs to prove it.  Here's to your success!

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

What's wrong with last, so long as you finish?

Jason and I were driving back to Raleigh from my hometown on Sunday afternoon.  We always stop at Neuse Sport Shop in Kinston on the way to/from the beach - it is a good halfway point and has super-clean restrooms. 

On Sunday, I saw a shirt on a gentleman that bothered me just a little.  Let me set up the situation though - 35-40 year old man, tall (probably 6'3" or a little taller), slim, athletic looking.  He had numbers on the back of his calves, etc.  My assumption is that he did a triathlon over the weekend and was heading back to his home. 

Anyway, the back of his shirt said "Don't be last."  For some reason, reading this on his shirt bothered me.  I guess part of it was because I had just finished a race the day before and finished last.  I worked hard to train for the Beaufort Road Race and completed the 10K, but still came in last.  It took me a little time, but I had to remember that I did the race and that was way more than I could do a year ago. 

So, here's my thinking... Even the best runner/athlete can be last.  If you take 4 elite runners and put them together to run a mile/5K/etc., one of them will come in first and one of them will come in last.  It's just how it has to be...  Despite the fact that we are all winners because we did the race, someone has to be the last to finish.

So, why such a stigma on being last?  I am not trying to be all "puppies and rainbows" about running, but why not some encouraging messages on the backs of shirts?  This could be motivation to the person wearing it, but also to the people that are behind them on the greenway, race course, etc.  It isn't about the time, it is about finishing.


Maybe some of the running companies can use messages like the messages below.  These are all courtesy of my awesome running buddy, Sarah.  She is one of the most encouraging, enthusiastic people I have ever met!
  • You are full of AWESOME!!
  • Most people can't do what you are doing! 
  • While everyone else is asleep in bed, you are running!
  • You're kicking ass and takin' names...
  • What would your shirt say??

Monday, July 18, 2011

Friend Makin' Monday

I have been reading Kenlie's blog for a while and draw a lot of inspriration from the things I read.  I decided to participate in Friend Makin' Monday for the first time today.

Feel free to join in on the fun.  Just remember to go to Kenlie's blog and post your blog link in the comments section!  


FMM: Ten Random Questions

1) What do you like most about yourself?  If I put my mind to something, I succeed.  I guess you could call that stubborn too :-)

2) List three characteristics that you like to have in your friends. Flat-out honesty, loyalty, and compassion for others

3) How often do you brush your teeth? When I wake up, (usually) after meals, and before bed.  If I get an urge to eat something I shouldn't in the middle of the day, sometimes I brush then too.

4) If you could travel anywhere today, where would you go? Somewhere not as hot and humid as North Carolina...  Or somewhere to take a break from it all with my husband

5) Have you ever met anyone from the blog world in person? Not yet!

6) What is the last show you watched on TV? I watched a couple of DVR'd Big Brother episodes last night

7) What kind of perfume/cologne do you wear? I have several I love - Calvin Klein Intuition, D&G Light Blue, and Ralph Lauren Romance

8) How long ago did you complete your last workout? I ran with the NCRC Women's Beginner Running Program this morning. Lovin' being a volunteer this year!

9) What will you eat for dinner tonight? Chicken Divan, Lightened Up from SkinnyTaste and a steamed veggie

10) Share something fun that you did over the weekend.  The hubs and I headed to my hometown this weekend.  I participated in the Beaufort Road Race 10K on Saturday morning.  Saturday evening we had a cookout with my Mama's side of the family.  It was great to see everyone that we don't get to see that often!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Beaufort Road Race 10K

Sometimes you do a race because you want to beat a time.  Sometimes you want to run a race because you haven't completed that distance yet.  Sometimes you run a race to raise funds for a cause important to you.  Sometimes races are done to conquer a little "demon" in your soul.... 

For me, the Beaufort Road Race was that race.  I grew up on the coast of North Carolina, in the small town of Beaufort.  I loved growing up there and (sometimes) miss the quiet of the small town life.  For as long as I can remember, the Beaufort Ole Towne Rotary has sponsored a 10K/5K through town.  When I was a kid, I remember seeing signs advertising the race.  I also remember thinking it would be cool to do the race...  but since I was the little fat kid, I normally watched or went to the water station near my house to help pass out water to the runners.  

When I started running on July 24, 2010, I knew this race was one I wanted to complete.  When I started my blog, I added this race to my "fitness bucket list".  Exactly 51 weeks after I started running, I completed the Beaufort Road Race 10K!  

Earlier last week, I was very concerned about the race.  I posted a message or two on Facebook to see if anyone I knew would be doing the race - no one responded.  Later in the week, I posted a message on Facebook about my fear of coming in dead last.  Thanks to some great encouragement from friends, I began to feel more confident about doing the race.

The weather for the race was beautiful...  but humid.  I was sporting my cute new Moving Comfort "Alexis" tank and I had my Nathan water belt ready to go.  My Daddy dropped me off at the courthouse around 7:25 that morning.  He headed back home to meet up with Jason to go to a place on the course to cheer me on.  I wandered around downtown, enjoying being downtown when there was relatively little hustle-and-bustle.  About 7:50, I got behind the starting line toward the back.  At 8 a.m., the gun fired and we were off.

Around mile 1.3, I passed the road that connects my neighborhood area to Front Street (Leonda Drive).  I saw Jason and my Daddy standing and cheering.  I was "in the groove" with my music and smiled, waved and kept on running.  Around mile 2.75, I passed the other side of Leonda Drive (at Lennoxville Road).  Evidently J asked if I would marry him again.  I didn't hear anything because I had my music going full blast, but my Daddy got it on video.  It was pretty funny.

By the time I reached the water at mile 3, I was starting to get hot.  I wasn't really thirsty, but my face was burning up.  I ended up taking a cup of water and pouring it on my face.  It helped a ton!  I repeated this at miles 4 and 5.  I didn't realize how much cooling my face and chest off would help.

The entire time, I had 3 ladies behind me.  From mile 3 on, I turned occasionally to see if they were still there.  They had been there, but kept falling further and further back.  When I got to 5.25/5.5 miles, I turned around to see who was still behind me.  Well, they weren't there.  You know what that meant?  If those three ladies were not still behind me, I was going to be last.  I started to panic.  My worst race fear was becoming a reality. 

I realized that this race was about me, not the people behind me.  As much as the thought of being last frustrated me, I kept on truckin'.  As I got closer to the finish line, there were people cheering and being so encouraging.  I finished the Beaufort Road Race in 1:19:59.  I had a goal to finish in less than 1:20 and I did it - one second less, but I did it! 

I had a little bit of a hard time dealing with finishing last yesterday.  After I thought more throughout the day about how far I have come in one year, I was happy with the result.  I am actually going to write another post tomorrow or later this week about being last because of a shirt I saw today. 

Looking forward to doing the Beaufort Road Race again next July!!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

This post is brought to you by the letter "H"

Hormones - If you are a guy reader, you may wish to skip this part...  For some reason, my hormones have been all out of wack the past week.  This can be a positive and a negative, depending on who you are in my life.  If you are one of my close girlfriends, you have probably had to listen to my whining about many things; the hubs has been "treading lightly" so as not to bring on a hormone-induced rant.  It has been interesting to say the least, but it is finally dying down. (Thank God!)

Heat/Humidity - I have been trying to get up at 5:15 several mornings and week for the past few weeks to get in a few quick miles.  The first two weeks weren't so bad, but this week sucked.  At 5:40 in the morning, it has been almost 80 degrees.  This is the type of run that makes you wonder why in the hell you are even out there.  It equals = totally sweaty within 4 minutes; no water after about 10; giving up after 1.5 miles and being mad at yourself.  Hopefully some of the heat/humidity will calm down or this chick will have to get up at 3 a.m. to run.

Hills - The hubs and I live in a part of town called "North Hills".  I have been following a certain straight out-and-back route for my weekday morning runs from home.  On Tuesday, I decided to try going through some of the neighborhoods around me.  It felt great to have a change of scenery at first.  Then, there came the monster hills - no bueno.  Needless to say, I definitely learned why the area is called "North Hills" and now totally believe that the area needs a new name because that is the biggest understatement.

I am sure there are more "H" things I can write about...  Hope you are all well!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

New favorite - Green Monsters

I love to read blogs of other folks that are focused on their healthy lifestyle and fitness journeys.  One thing that I have seen over and over on the blogs is the infamous Green Monster

The Green Monster is pretty simple.  It's a smoothie that has a base of spinach or kale.  They are supposed to be so wonderful for you - increase energy, decrease oils and fats, cravings change from sweets to fruits/veggies, etc.

Last week I bit the bullet and bought a blender and set out to figure out what all the hub-bub was about.  I scoured the Internet for recipes, etc.  I found tons of variations and made my first Green Monster on Saturday morning.  The first one was pretty darn good, but I did learn that I need a little bit of liquid to make it blend well, etc. I have made three more since Saturday and I think I have finally found my favorite combination:
  • 1 (6 oz.) container of fat free vanilla yogurt
  • 2-3 good handfuls of fresh spinach
  • a handful of shredded carrots or other veggies (if I have them)
  • 2 tablespoons of finely ground flax seed
  • 1-2 cups of frozen fruit (this week, I have used a combination of strawberry, mango and peach)
  • a splash of water (probably less than 1/4 cup)
The combination above has about 6 Weight Watchers Points Plus values for a huge serving.  It almost fills my 24-ounce Tervis Tumbler and is a delicious start to the day.  While I don't think I will be jumping on the Green Monster every single day of the week bandwagon, I have found a new fun meal/snack. 

Any suggestions on other combinations?

Friday, July 1, 2011

Update on the thumb, etc.

I went to my primary care physician on Wednesday afternoon to have my stitches removed from my thumb.  When she was examining my thumb, she said "...Wow...  I am surprised the doctor at the urgent care didn't send you to the ER.  This is one of the worst cuts I have seen in a long time..."  She fixed me and bandaged me back up.  I will have to wear a little non-stick pad and a wrap on my thumb for at least a month, but at least the stitches are out.  She said as I was leaving "...Maybe you should stay away from the mandolin in the future..."  Of course, my response was "You think?  No doubt about that!"  Glad that my thumb is on the mend, but quite annoyed that it will be bandaged up for a while longer.  Oh well...

Well, it is Friday afternoon of the Independence Day holiday weekend.  Jason and I are going to run a few errands after work and do our grocery shopping.  Tomorrow, we are planning to head to the outlets in Mebane.  The last time we went, we didn't have a good amount of time to look around, etc.  We're hoping the outlets won't be too crowded - hopefully everyone will be at the beach or at the lake. 

On Sunday and Monday, we have only a few things on the agenda - relax, sit by the pool, and eat yummy homemade food (and drink delicious beer, of course!).  I cannot wait.  One of my favorite parts of living in our condo complex is the pool.  Most of our neighbors are older.  This means a few things for us, considering that we are the youngest people in the complex - quiet neighbors, clean buildings, and no one is ever at the pool!  I am looking forward to celebrating the Independence Day holiday and working on my tan.

At some point this weekend, I must get back to running.  I ran on Thursday morning and I could definitely tell that I had not run since the previous Saturday morning.  The Beaufort Road Race 10K is in 2 weeks and I am concerned I am not going to be able to do it.  My plan is to try to get in 6 to 8 miles this weekend.